I’ve discovered in the last few weeks that I can’t just stay busy in order to stave off the depression that comes with waiting: I also have to be productive.
Things that haven’t worked:
- Trying to work out a problem I’ve been having with my research when my PI is gone for almost an entire week.
- Working on a lab report when I only half-understand how to do the data analysis, and therefore only turn out one page in a couple of hours (!)
- Reading fluffy novels
- Looking at rentals near the one university I’ve been admitted to
Things that have worked:
- Installing recessed lighting in the living room
- Working on research after my PI came back
- Teaching 35 people search & rescue techniques and participating in a mock disaster
See, I need immediate, positive results to keep the depression at bay. Maybe not on the research front, as my PI seems to emit positive-thinking radiation; just being around him works. But otherwise, I need to be productive. The problem is that, with all the worries associated with waiting, it’s hard to keep my mind on task. It’s become a vicious downward spiral…
Other things that help but aren’t necessarily productive:
- Hugging my two younger boys. I would hug the older two, but they don’t like to be hugged any more. *weeps*
- Playing board games with my family. Even when they beat me, which they usually do.
- Watching the chickens scratch in the garden.
- Listening to good classical music.
In other news, I did decide to email GU about whether to visit or not, and am still awaiting an answer.